Loved by a tree

Spring break is next week.

Thoughts;

I locked the spider that has been living above my bathroom window outside on accident and paused to consider letting her back in for a few minutes. I kind of feel guilty for not.

pallets

painting twigs

tea

internships

summer

thrifting frames

haircuts and dyes

weaving

feathers

Tessa the Talented

Dear Tessa,

Thank you for being in my life.

Divine appointments!

Fer Sher

This has been a great week.

This time is a time of beauty.

Thoughts;

tea

good conversation

God 

dinner parties

the 1940's

Eolian

I spilled tea on my HP and ruined the keyboard a few weeks ago.

Chai and laptops do not mix.

It's not cute.

So now I am using my mom's old Acer Aspire...

I like it though.

I love my classes.

I love learning about soils and having fun labs and meeting new people.

I love wrestling sheep and making wet mount slides and focusing the microscope.

I love taking notes on soil textures and learning about pedons and parent materials.

I love going out to the farm and surrounding areas.

I love, love, love walking to class everyday.

The weather is beautiful, I love my university, and I will make due with what I have.

I seriously am so grateful for everything. I feel like I am right where I belong and wake up each morning feeling so blessed. I can wait. I can wait because I love where I am. I am learning so much and can wait to graduate. I can wait to start my career because I love what I'm learning.

I am just so excited. The weeks are flying by. I don't know how my other classes will be able to top these, but I'm sure they will.

Seriously, so excited.

As I walk to class I think about how some people will never experience this bliss. Some people don't get to go to school. Some people don't even get to feel safe walking to school, or work, or wherever. Some people don't get to see the beautiful sites I get to take soil samples from. In my polysci class I saw a picture of a man in Greece dousing himself with gas and lighting himself on fire. It is so sad because he felt like there was no hope other than to light himself on fire. Like, how bad can life be that you feel so strongly about ending it? Here I am singing to myself on my way to class on a beautiful morning, and there he is lighting himself on fire. It is heartbreaking. There is always hope. Always.

And on that note...

What you've missed:

I started working with GRUB in a community garden, and of course, I love it!

I saw the Sutter Buttes from a ridge and felt proud.

I hit the gym, and LOVE IT, such a nice facility.

Went to see Carley in Redding with Josh.

Let my hens out and they ate all the bugs.

Found Plaid Dragon and her song Dog Physics. On repeat.

Thoughts;

backyard garden prospects

love, grace

truth is eolian

wind

seafoam green

candles

farmer's markets

"waves gonna break"

Sufjan Stevens and his banjo

church with Tessa 

quiche

internship

so, so, so thankful and happy and blessed and butterflies and fireflies and praise

I can rest again.

My heart feels like that little girl.

I love my house

I love my cat

I love lamp

I love my classes

I love my car

I love my lab groups

I love my boyfriend

I love my waterbottle

I love my mango

I love my little cheap computer

I love sky

I love my now working printer

I love my doorknob

I love ma frend

I love my hens

I love my windchime

I love my bottles

I love my rosemary sitting on the counter

I love my dresses

I love my backpack and thinking about how to make it cute

I love

I love 

I love

I love

I love

I'm at a coffee shop.

In the past two weeks I have:

Gone to Fort Bragg.

Packed up.

Moved to Chico.

Started Chico State.

Fallen deeper in love.

Cried.

Laughed.

Grown.

My house has a lot of quirks. Right now I look like I am chaiing it up, but really I am using the free wifi to post and do homework. I'm reading about really depressing statistics about HIV incidences increasing and life expectancy rates dropping. How does this relate to agricultural ecology? I'm not sure, which is why I am taking the class.

It feels good to be back in the swing of things. I love getting to walk to class. I love living close to campus. I love my classes. I love my major. I love the friends I have already here. I love the idea of making more. I love Chico State and all God is doing here. I love it!

Living on my own (sans roommate) is tough but I think I will get used to it.

Thank God for Netflix and Anouk!

Thoughts;

Home - ES&MZ

Oh, yea...I got chickens!

Spartacus, Pantoufle, and X.

Josh named his Spartacus. The name makes me intimidated by her and makes everyone refer to her as "he".

Pantoufle looks like Anouk. I named Anouk after the daughter in Chocolat. Anouk's imaginary kangaroo in the movie is called Pantoufle. In the book it is a rabbit. In my backyard it is a chicken.

X is to be named by ma frend.

My yardbirds should start laying as the days get longer!

Black Tuesday

1. Today I gave my horse away.
2. She'll have a good home, be used, and be loved.

I feel like crying.

I am crying.

Sacrifice.

2013

While I am waiting to register for my classes (I am eligible at midnight) I thought I would wander here and let the internet know what I have been up to...

Happy New Year!

It is now 2013 and a lot is changing in my life.

For starters, I will be going to Chico State starting at the end of this month.

Very exciting! ...also very expensive.

But worth it?

I am continuing with Tuesday's training, which I have no idea how I will afford since I might have to stop working at my current job since my schedule at Chico seems like it is going to be busy.

I am really thinking about going vegan. Right now I am doing my annual Daniel Fast (DF) to start off the year with deliberate choices and focusing on what is important. I also watched Get Vegucated on Netflix and realized I wanted to be a better steward of creation, and that making more vegan choices was a step in the right direction. While on the DF I have made some pretty good recipes, making me feel like going vegan would not be that difficult. I already have been vegetarian for 8 years...

I've made vegan alfredo sauce, red sauce, sweet potato ravioli, sopes, and have plenty of other recipes I'd like to try. I think the secret to vegan cooking is coconut milk...

Even if I do not go vegan, I want to start buying eggs from local coops rather than "free range" at the store. I also plan on making the most out of farmer's markets and craigslist postings.

Woo!