So I Can Explain?

I've been lost in my classes.

I've been busy irrigating and feeding horses and watering plants.

I've been eating melon and washing my dishes by hand and putting sticks on my wall.

But finals are now, this week, today.

Then summer.

What you've missed;

petty spurge, in my eye.

Jericho biting my finger.

nail in my new tires.

no ceiling fan in 97 degree May days.

Positive things you've missed;

Steph got baptized.

cool agricultural ecology lab trips.

walks to the Saturday farmers market.

hugs from the draft horse at the stables.

great lighting in the kitchen.

Thoughts;

high and dry - radiohead

summer

I cut my own hair

Bidwell Park, all the time

creative

watermelon

new music

swimming

salt air

fog

sea gulls

Goodbye, March

Thoughts;

pizza

wild flowers

thyme

sunshine

pine cones

Anouk

thunderstorms

a horse rescue

Spring Break 2013

 

rain.

So far I have worked, done my taxes, sorted through stuff, and been gifted new tires (thanks Mom!).

I also got to ride bikes in the rain with Josh, get ice cream, and go on a walk with my mom and the dogs. We went to see Steph at her new work, had the nanny-lets come over and visit, and hit the best thrift stores here. I scored a new flannel (might give it to Josh, seems too big), got a wreath for my front door, and a cute bandana. Oh, and had a lot of good food!

 

Thoughts;

home

mustard grasses

vintage

work

buffaloo

internships

Tallest Man on Earth

the BLM

cranberries

the West

John Wayne

mustangs

 

Loved by a tree

Spring break is next week.

Thoughts;

I locked the spider that has been living above my bathroom window outside on accident and paused to consider letting her back in for a few minutes. I kind of feel guilty for not.

pallets

painting twigs

tea

internships

summer

thrifting frames

haircuts and dyes

weaving

feathers

Tessa the Talented

Dear Tessa,

Thank you for being in my life.

Divine appointments!

Fer Sher

This has been a great week.

This time is a time of beauty.

Thoughts;

tea

good conversation

God 

dinner parties

the 1940's

Eolian

I spilled tea on my HP and ruined the keyboard a few weeks ago.

Chai and laptops do not mix.

It's not cute.

So now I am using my mom's old Acer Aspire...

I like it though.

I love my classes.

I love learning about soils and having fun labs and meeting new people.

I love wrestling sheep and making wet mount slides and focusing the microscope.

I love taking notes on soil textures and learning about pedons and parent materials.

I love going out to the farm and surrounding areas.

I love, love, love walking to class everyday.

The weather is beautiful, I love my university, and I will make due with what I have.

I seriously am so grateful for everything. I feel like I am right where I belong and wake up each morning feeling so blessed. I can wait. I can wait because I love where I am. I am learning so much and can wait to graduate. I can wait to start my career because I love what I'm learning.

I am just so excited. The weeks are flying by. I don't know how my other classes will be able to top these, but I'm sure they will.

Seriously, so excited.

As I walk to class I think about how some people will never experience this bliss. Some people don't get to go to school. Some people don't even get to feel safe walking to school, or work, or wherever. Some people don't get to see the beautiful sites I get to take soil samples from. In my polysci class I saw a picture of a man in Greece dousing himself with gas and lighting himself on fire. It is so sad because he felt like there was no hope other than to light himself on fire. Like, how bad can life be that you feel so strongly about ending it? Here I am singing to myself on my way to class on a beautiful morning, and there he is lighting himself on fire. It is heartbreaking. There is always hope. Always.

And on that note...

What you've missed:

I started working with GRUB in a community garden, and of course, I love it!

I saw the Sutter Buttes from a ridge and felt proud.

I hit the gym, and LOVE IT, such a nice facility.

Went to see Carley in Redding with Josh.

Let my hens out and they ate all the bugs.

Found Plaid Dragon and her song Dog Physics. On repeat.

Thoughts;

backyard garden prospects

love, grace

truth is eolian

wind

seafoam green

candles

farmer's markets

"waves gonna break"

Sufjan Stevens and his banjo

church with Tessa 

quiche

internship

so, so, so thankful and happy and blessed and butterflies and fireflies and praise

I can rest again.

My heart feels like that little girl.

I love my house

I love my cat

I love lamp

I love my classes

I love my car

I love my lab groups

I love my boyfriend

I love my waterbottle

I love my mango

I love my little cheap computer

I love sky

I love my now working printer

I love my doorknob

I love ma frend

I love my hens

I love my windchime

I love my bottles

I love my rosemary sitting on the counter

I love my dresses

I love my backpack and thinking about how to make it cute

I love

I love 

I love

I love

I love