Monday, March 16, 2015

March //



.. March .. 
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with responsibilities.
And a lot of times they are self-imposed.
I signed up for these classes, these tasks, these relationships.
Sometimes it feels like the room is getting smaller and time is going faster and I haven't seen, and I mean really seen, the stars or felt the wind in my hair and all I have time for is a shower and barely remember to feed Duke and put the chooks to bed.
So, when time seems to slow.
When I get to take in the beauty of a moment, slowly with intention,
like sunset's colors spilling into your kitchen, calling you outside, 
like a lull in conversation where you and your company are fully enjoying the sound of the fire,
like the smell of smoke lingering, reminding you of the summers of youth.
I'm filled.
Filled with joy and thankfulness and gratitude and feel refreshed.

My car is in the shop.
I'm on my bike for the next few days.
I like it.

11:37
In the hush of the deep, night wraps
herself around me like a blanket.
We whisper of things to come,
in and out of dreaming.
I talk of cutting my hair but
she insists I leave it be,
leave it to grow.
Still I wonder what it would feel like
to have bare shoulders.
Vulnerable perhaps, but better yet
freeing.
Does growth only come with time, or
can it come suddenly
dragging me out to sea like a riptide?
Either way, the moon is the moon and I am not.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

International Women's Day


Listening to a lot of Bikini Kill on this lovely spring-like day.

You do have rights.
You are worthy.
You are strong.
You deserve to be heard.

Down with double standards.
Down with beauty being defined by opposite-sex appeal.
Down with gender roles.
Down with the patriarchy.

Saturday, January 31, 2015

Cuttings




Life is weird. 
Things just flow, and flow, and flow.
I'm super grateful for the people in my life. For family and friends, new and old. 
I'm thankful for my jobs, my little house, my pets.
I'm thankful for access to nature and free organic produce.
I'm thankful for sunshine and the smell of hay on the breath of my favorite horse; thankful to watch Duke smile as he runs alongside me and the Mule.
I'm overwhelmed sometimes.
Overwhelmed with thanks and homework and love 
and by the smell of early spring; the smell of each individual 
blade of grass worshiping and adoring.
Overwhelmed by the beauty of clicking and swooping bats at the barn, 
by the grace in such little movements.
I'm full of so much warmth.
Life is kind.

Thoughts;
friendship
new growth
the oh hellos
letters
mix CDs
butternut curry soup
slow Saturdays
being awake
spring, in her truest form


Friday, January 23, 2015

The Start of Something New

The start of most things is almost always the best part. Things are fresh and new.
Like spring. 
The first day of my last semester of college was Tuesday.
After all the years spent in a school system, it is interesting* to imagine life on the outside.

To new beginnings coming from some other beginning's end!

*read "exciting/terrifying/exhilarating/paralyzing"












Here are some moments from the trip to see Allie.

Thoughts;
fog
ocean air
gulls
warm sand
lace
Chico's wonderful spring smells
sunshine
hikes
camping
thankfulness

Table Mountain






Monday, January 12, 2015

Upper Park























Weeds, sunshine, Bidwell.
Enjoyed a long walk with Duke. 
Took in the warm sunshine, shared a mandarin from my mom's tree, and thought about life.
Then we headed to the barn.
Pretty sweet, simple day.

Thoughts;
rain
citrus
spring
surf rock band names
SoCal road trip x2
500 Days of Summer
the future

Point Reyes and Tessa's SF Life



















































Point Ryes/San Francisco
Tessa and Devin