Sunday, September 30, 2012


baby I can see your halo,
you know you're my saving grace.

Had my dinner yesterday.
Found a 35mm toy camera for $4.
Cut my bangs with my left hand.
Made fresh pasta and red sauce.
Got carded buying Merlot.
My iPhone is broken.
Allie left earlier.

Weekend adjourned.

where is the cold
acoustic worship

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Yesterday was my 21st birthday.

I wore my favorite thrifted plaid flannel shirt; got my huge wrappings off my wrist replaced by a slender (and removable!) brace; and got treated to a mass of wonderful texts, emails, and phone calls. Josh and I ran for Chinese take-out. My grandparents, mom, Josh, and I sat at the table and enjoyed. Enjoyed the greasy treat. Enjoyed reviving a tradition of Full House take out on September 24th. Enjoyed a glass of wine. Enjoyed the company. I felt so grown up and loved. Such a simple day, yet one of my favorite birthdays. I am so grateful for so many people and things in my life. My hair is getting so long. My wrist is healing up quite nicely. I am so content in my relationships right now. Weeding out the draining factors has really allowed the good to blossom. I am excited for this year and what is in store.


Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I want you.

Today I lazed around in self pity, in and out of delusions.
Then I decided it was ridiculous to feel so low about something so transitory, so I wrapped my splint in a towel and took a shower.
Today, victory has a clean scent.

I also broke out the watercolors.

Lotte Kestner
I'm dropping Chem
need to send transcripts to Chico
surgery Thursday
love my typewriter
sad about not being able to take photos
missing the rain
the night
the stars
the cold
the smell of fires
the blue of the moonlight

If I was talking in my sleep, I hope it was fearless and courageous.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Last Friday Night

Saw Brolly at GT...

Then I got on Tuesday, then I fell off on Saturday and landed in the ER with a broken wrist.
Gracias, caballo.

my back hurts
my neck hurts
my arm hurts

I have to get back up, and on.


positive thoughts;
I get to learn to use my left hand...for EVERYTHING
I can decorate my cast however I want
I get to watch my lectures via Skype

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Let the leaves fall!

If you're scared of secrets, I will tell you what I know...
...and what they don't.

Listening to a lot of slow, autumn-tinged music.
I really want fall.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Ma frend is in Humboldt now.
This means that I know how to spell Arcata and Humboldt now.

chemistry is evil
I hate homework
I like my horse

Monday, September 10, 2012


This is Elanor.
I call her Ellie.
Josh calls her Ella.
Or 'little shit'.